Take a Piece of Me With You When You Leave...

Thursday.

2009-11-05T05:39:00.000-08:00

Assembly today. Chemistry 1st two periods. She got pissed cos we didnt do the trial paper so she started askin us for the answer 1 by 1. Sejarah, BM... same ol same ol... Actually everythg today was pretty much the usual. Just a very stressed out day for me. Today it hit me. We have... 13 more days. Thats it. 13 days to SPM, damn it.. That sucks ass.. SO...... Im not goin to school 2mrw. Stayin home to study...

I had a nap this afternoon. I dreamt about "you". I dreamt that.. We had to go our seperate ways. It was awful. Because at this point in my life, i can say that the world, MY world is a better place with you in it.

>>> I may not call you every night, but when i do, i hate hanging up. I love to hear the sound of your voice..
>>> I may not say it quite as much as i should, but when i say i love you, darlin, that means for good.
>>> I may not do everything right, but everythg i do, i do it for you.
>>> If you asked me to sing you a song, i would sing this to you :

Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

Yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

Yes, you're lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ... Just the way you look tonight.

Me be lovin u long time. =)

~DJ~

He Said She Said..

2009-11-04T05:34:00.000-08:00

Isnt that like a song by Ashley Tisdale? lol who cares..

He said: Hey, i love you. Do remember that.
She said: I love you too. Never forget that.
He said: Never will..

I will hang on to your hand as long as you dont let go. So... Never let go okay..

Btw, i know this is irrelevant but i have to say that Whitney's new song - Million Dollar Bill is simply awesome. She is a living legend.

~DJ~

Manic Monday..

2009-11-02T06:24:00.000-08:00

Im pretty sure you guys have heard this song before. It goes like this:

"it's just another manic monday,
i wish it were a sunday,
cause that's my funday,
my I don't have to runday,
it's just another manic monday..."

And indeed it was.. The same old crap in school.. One thing i cant stand is when teachers tunjuk muka in school. I mean, not all of them are like that. Just a few u know.. Its like they come in with muka 2 sen pun tak dapat jual. To give them the benefit of doubt, i suppose they're equally pressured. Oh well. Mrs Bean needs to smile more. hahahah..

Sejarah was just marking trial papers from Kelantan and Terengganu.. "Belombuan" LOL! Damn, i feel bad. but what to do?! I cant help it! It sounds so funny.. heheh. K k enuf. SPM dekat already. Hmm... what else.. i managed to finish my EST essay during moral cos we didnt do anything else. Recess was all mellow for some reason. So i stood outside class just lookin at the church, the sea and admiring people going to the toilet. hahaha.. that sounds so stupid. ANYWHO'S... yeah, Dyg kena marah from Cikgu CT afta BM for bringin her hp to kelas bimbingan i think. But Cikgu CT was not like im-gonna-kill-u serious la. English... We did SPM Model Test paper (2, that is). and then while sending back the papers to Ms Val:

Ms Val: thank you.................................
Me:................................... *grins* ur welcome, Ms Val.

Hahah.. Then came bio. i left my paper 3 at home!

Me: Uhm... Teacher? I... er... I... 4got to bring my paper.
Mr L.H.G: *rolls eyes* Share la owh!
Me: Er.. Yes, sir.

Surprisingly no lecture from him. haha... But he did get pissed sumwhere in the middle. I cant recall why as I was falling asleep. Physics was.. OMG. I dont know if its me, or the subject, or the teacher.. But everytime during Physics, time passes by oh so very SSSSLLLLLLLLOOOOOWWWWWW. Today was one of those whatever days so i couldnt care less what was goin on. Shaleen just kept sayin "..kek" and i was being all "...tek" hahaha...

Thats just another manic monday of mine. As mum says, "another day in 'paradise'..."

~DJ~

Mistaken perhaps?

2009-10-30T06:29:00.000-07:00

Sigh.. i think i made a mistake.
But i think the only way we learn is through our mistakes so, no regrets; Only lessons.
Thats pretty much it for today. Rather depressing for some reason, this past 2 days. And i feel as if we're (Me and some1, not for you to know who) drifting apart..? Oh well. I hope not but its not in my hands.. Have a good weekend, ppl... God bless.

~Down and out - DJ~

~Just Friends~

2009-10-29T07:25:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you hold my hand, sometimes you kiss my cheek, sometimes we gaze at each other for a second too long... In fact i'd look into your eyes for the whole day if i could. But we're just friends? Its not fair but its alright. I love you no matter what.

If you asked how much i love you....... i would do this for you:

I would say this to you:

And that i love you beacause you smile at me and mean it...

And that its better to have loved and lost than to have not loved at all...

And that i didnt choose to, i just fell...

And that to fall in love with you is awfully simple but to fall out of love with you is simply awful...

And that love is friendship, friendship is love. If love fails, our friendship should remain; For friendship is the foundation of love...

The sound of your kiss is not as loud as a cannon, but it's echo lasts a great deal longer..

To love you and win your heart is the best thing. To love and lose, is the next best. =)

My love for you... is born with the pleasure of looking at you, it is fed with the necessity of seeing you, and it is concluded with the impossibility of being seperated from you...

You dont need to know much about me. Just know that...........

My face is the mirror of the mind and my eyes, without speaking confess the secrets of my heart...

Well, it seems to me that the best relationships--the ones that last-- are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day i looked at you and i saw something more than i did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And you, the person who was just a friend is...suddenly the only person i can ever imagine myself with..

Just one chance, one shot.. thats all it takes. Take this step with me and i promise, you wont regret it...

I love you regardless of whatever happens from here on.

"A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love"

-Stendhal

~DJ~

The 3 of Us... BNS

2009-10-28T09:08:00.000-07:00

UNAGI!! hahaha... Shaleen's favourite word currently... i just say EEL!

My egg mayo...

Bryan's Salmon thgy... it looks damn fresh na?

Face 1...

Face 2...

Ah... finally... Face 3..

Me & Shaleen... this was supposed to be an outting to "release stress"along with her bday outting.

Go for it, babe. Now u know what you keep sayin tastes like. Hahah...

At the bowling alley.. I told them i suck at it but they insisted.

Shaleen, bowling...

Mr. I Can Beat Ur Ass At Bowling Anytime. =D

See! I told u! This was jz afta i "CHARGED" at it, according to Shaleen. I didnt CHARGE at it! They were laughing their asses off right about this time.

Anyways, i had a good time with them. Been a while since i last went out so this was fun. The 2 best friends of mine. =)

~DJ~

2nd week of trials..

2009-10-05T00:55:00.000-07:00

Hmm... wonder why i felt like Bio was gonna be any different this time. it was just as bad (as the previous times)... Anyways.. So today is like 1st day of 2nd week of trials... Physics 2, Bio 2 and EST 1... Physics was so-so only la. was aite. Est also.. Bio hancus. haha... 2mrw onwards the timetable changed so we get to go home at 12.35pm.. Erm.. 2mrw got Modern Maths 1 and Physics 3.. What else? oh ya my right eye is SOOO swelled up i can barely open it half way. and it HURTS!!!!

I dunno why but it HURTSSSSSSSS! so yea mum n dad said i gotta make a trip to KL soon to see Dato' Shukri, my eye specialist. I've always had problems with my eyes. And he's the best doctor around so i trust him with my eyes, and i shall nvr trust another. :) Oh well. i gotta go close my eyes for a while n put a hot towel on it. Mum's orders until we get back to KL to fix it. Peace out, ppl.

~In Pain - DJ~

1st day of Trials...

2009-09-28T00:43:00.000-07:00

Wow... I've nvr been this nervous for an exam.. and its not even the real thing. its just trials.. Hmm... Wonder how SPM will feel like. Guess i've to wait and see (then again, not much time left to sit around and wait)..

Now for the exam part, BM was... 50-50? i dunno. paper 1 was okay but the 1st essay was totally crap.. Langkah-langkah mengatasi masalah banjir... i was still half asleep that time but whatever i wrote was indirectly kutuk-ing the rakyat. Lol.. 2nd essay was ok cos i chose question no. 1. i think almost every1 did. Very the susah okay!! Paper 2 was not too bad, though. Hope n pray for the best... EST pulak... i think Mdm Rita is goin all out to make us regret takin the subject. haha.. Well, it wasnt terrible. Just tricky. Me no like tricky :/

As for you, i've come to the conclusion that either ur blind or purposely ignoring it. :) the fact is ur not blind but maybe figuratively, u are. Erm... i can jz think of this to say to you:

"No, its not enough, dont touch my hand and call it love."

Well thank God you dont read my blog. or at least i think u dont. *shrugs* K i gtg study now! 2mrw Sejarah 1 & 2 (die lo) and Chem 2 (la favourite...) Much love, peace!

~DJ~

Stress gila babi!!!

2009-09-27T08:13:00.000-07:00

Argh!!! its about 11.30 now.. Trials are startin 2mrw.. And im excited abt school, believe me, i am. jz not the exam part... Anyways.. Wish me luck, ppl. Gonna need loads of it. Oh and 1 more thg i wanna add. Shaleen sent me a msg jz now.

S: i had a family dinner n had this big a** fish which reminded me of da school pond & us going "pish pish" one and a million times w our hands and what s***, lalala you get my point. i missed you (: love you, nite!

Me: Hehe... Jauh also you think. But anyways gud to hear from u. Its been a crap couple of days. I miss you too ): but i love u heaps, sweetheart..

Yup. thats me & my best fren. Let us now go to our slumber and anticipate the beginning of our 2nd trial exam.. Gud luck, every1!

~DJ~

Long time no update

2009-09-26T08:12:00.000-07:00

Its been so long since i last blogged .. always the case.. haha.. now i dunno where to start. but anyways.. lets see.. i guess among the happenings in my life so far are... 1) thgs are back to normal with certain ppl.. which is a gud thg becos Form 5 is comin to an end n i dowanna leave with bad memories.. 2) im havin a super hard time with sum1 who was so very important in my life.. never thought we'd end up like this. but i remember what Neesh said to me once upon a time.. "Ppl change, conscious or not, like it or not, they jz do." and she was so right abt that.. i jz miss the way thgs were b4 n wish that it wud go back to normal though i noe its not gonna happen. im too hurt.. for now at least, i need to be away from u. 3) i took my camera to school sumwhere.. last mth? n we took sum really awesome photos.. my classmates are the best n i've really enjoyed the past yr + 9 mths with them. hopin to enjoy whats left of it =) 4) my bday turned out pretty alright.. it was on the 14th and we had like tea cum dinner at my house. lotsa frens showed up.. frens meanin my frens, dad's frens & mum's frens.. Those of mine who came were Ma, Daus, Sarah, Jojo, Joanne, Keela, Nazim, Azra, Bryan & Shaleen... it was good to hv them around.. 5) The youth rally with Fr. Stan was AWESOME!!! it really changed me as a person.. no more cursing, swearing, anythg bad. i am set free by my God who is mighty to save. 6) Trials are like coming monday.. spent the hols studyin but sumhow it feels like its not enuf. So im freaking out!!!!

Today was nothin much.. Sarah woke me up at like 7am today with a wake up call. i went back to sleep afta that, no surprise. then she called again n said she'll be at my place in half an hour. i was like "sure. k. see u." n... Zzzzzzzz........ 20 mins later i woke up n was like "darn.. i need to bathe." so i was bathing n Ivy came upstairs n said "SARAH'S HERE!!!!" haha. anyways. we studied afta that.. then at 12 we went to Azreena's house.. Raya open house mah... The food was like so good.. i miss Raya food u see... n seein that we're not in KL, that meant no raya food at Aunty Gie's place or her mum's place. which is tragic, really. Anyways.. thats abt it. i aint gonna blog in detail abt the past couple mths cos it'll take 4eva. but i WILL post sum pictures up next.

~Pray for those who are on the other side of the world,

the hungry, the sick, the prisoners, those who hate you, those of your enemies.

Pray for those who are not even born yet. The one who doesnt know of your existance.

Pray for them and pray for good.~

~DJ~

Permanent...

2009-05-22T05:38:00.000-07:00

ohPermanant is actually 1 of the songs that David Cook sang. It has been related to the incident of his brother's passing. I really think its a beautiful song and so i jz had to up the lyrics here.. Losing someone to cancer has to be 1 of the most painful things to deal with. I would know because my late grandfather suffered the same think.. I pray for those out there who have to go through this, be it themselves or someone they love. God bless all of you.

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?

Forgive my broken promise that you’ll never see me cry

And everything, it will surely change

even if I tell you I won’t go away today

Will you think that you’re all alone

When no one’s there to hold your hand?

And all you know seems so far away

and everything is temporary, rest your head

I’m permanent..

I know he’s living in hell every single day

And so I ask oh God is there some way for me to take his place

And when they say just touch and go

I wish I could make it go away

But still you say

Will you think that you’re all alone

when no one’s there to hold your hand?

When all you know seems so far away

and everything is temporary, rest your head

I’m permanent... I’m permanent..

Is this moment where I look you in the eye?

Forgive my promise that you’ll never see me cry...

~In loving memory of Robert Jacob~

-DJ-

Starry starry night...

2009-05-12T01:35:00.000-07:00

So yesterday after i came home from school, i had lunch and then went to sleep for a while..

then i woke up LATE for tuition. and i mean LATE.

Tuition starts at like 6pm and i woke up at 5.54... Mum yelled for me to get ready so

i hurried up. I went downstairs and got my things ready la. Tengok2 my dad

shock shock take his own sweet time. So i knocked on the door (its like 6.10 that time)

and i was like "hurry up!!!" and he's like "why, got tuition ah?" So then i went for tuition

at about 6.20... OKay maths was alright. I decided not to go for chem

cos my i had to study for today's exam. So papa picked me up at 7.30.

Sat in the car and suddenly the whole of PUJUT area blackout.

Hahahah how ironic. Got home and my family was havin a candle light dinner.

I didnt really feel like eating. Then I was playin guitar while waitin for the

damned electricity to get back on. Got fed up. Went online la. Was tellin Ms Val to 4give

me if i dont do well for English cos without the electricity its reallllly hard to

see n do revision.. Dah la aku buta.. Lagi in the dark what more to say..

She was like "yea right what an excuse...." haha just then the electricity came back on

and she perasan just when i talked to her, it came back. hahah okay maybe she

was the good luck charm yesterday. lol...

Hmm... today, we had both English papers & Physics paper 3..

Hancur la my Physics... Anyways, still got paper 2 left to save me... :P English

was quite alright.. Paper 2 was a bit difficult but im leavin it all in His hands.

After school, i went home with Shaleen and OMGGGGGG.. hahah well,

i cant really mention it here but all i can say is... "PANAS!!!!!" Holy cow, man...

hahahaha! She'll know what im talkin about =P Anyways................... movin on...

2mrw i can only hope for some divine intervention..lol Its Bio paper 1 & 3... Only God can help.

So thats it for now. I gtg studyy! Wish me luck ppl. Peace :)

-DJ-

I Miss Them/It..

2009-05-11T00:45:00.000-07:00

Exam sucked so we aint gonna talk about it. Moving on......

I miss... my cousins.

I miss... my friends.

I miss... my dogs.

I miss...my aunties & uncles.

I miss... Mama Ruby (& her cooking, lol)

I miss... Gerry mama

I miss... KL mamak.

I miss... KL nasi lemak & ABC

I miss... KLCC (best place to cuci mata!!!! hahah)

I miss it all and i cant wait to go back for the holidays.
Sum pics of the above. lol.

I'll be back on th 27th, ya'll. Woohoooooo! Peace out.

-DJ-

Pictures ;)

2009-05-10T04:00:00.000-07:00

Me & Ivy @ Desserts

Me & Gwen @ Jazz Fest last night

How d'ya like my "hat"? its not mine... haha

After she tortured me. Lol

We wrote our names in the sand, but they wrote their names in my heart.

Me & Jojo

Me & Shaleen

Our bfast @ PBC - pancakes

Garlic bread w cheese. Yummmm.

My work of art..Appetizers

Me & Sarah in the car...

Nic, Aunty Barathi & Me

Cikgu Mazura & Me @ Secret Recipe

Jz some random pictures from different parties, events, birthdays, etc... All of which hv one thg in common. They involve some very special ppl in my life. God bless them always.

Peace =)

-DJ-

Overdue Updates

2009-05-10T02:29:00.000-07:00

Gosh, i didnt realize my last post was so long ago. Valentine's lagi.. haha. Damn, just shows how busy i've been. okay well, a lot has happened since then but i don't think i can talk about every single thg here. tak muat bah.. dat's why.. hahah. ER... let's see, our debate was last month.. It was good though we didnt make it to the end. But honestly, it was great fun. The juniors are so much fun to hang out with. And Sam, our 2nd speaker.. My god, she's only form 2 but she is SOO dedicated and committed. Its so amazing. I absolutely adore her. Our supporters and reserves were all great as well. They helped a lot, not to mention, cracked jokes here and there to ease the tention. Ms Val & Ms Vanessa were very motivating as well. 1 thg i can remember is that we were like really late on the 2nd day cos we got the times all mixed up. So what happened was that we (the speakers & reserves) jumped into Ms Val's car instead of going by bus and OMG... I got nothin but respect for Ms Val. Jesus, she's better than those Fast&Furious punya drivers. HAHAHAHA she can really speed up. And i mean, REALLY. Me, Sarah, Sam, Jacelyn & Sofie diam giler cos we all had our hearts in our mouths. But that was fun. Im gonna miss spending the afternoons with them.

Movin on... School is really getting stressful man... SPM is getting closer n closer... Sangat menakutkan.. b4 worryin abt that though, i hv to worry about 2mrw (1st term exam startin). Im so not prepared. Oh ya, Sarah was here jz now. We were studying. then her dad came so we were walkin down stairs and ****! she slipped! Christ! I quickly tried to catch her hand but i feel so bad. i hope she didnt hurt herself... I cudnt even think at that moment. all i cud say was "are you okay? are you hurt?" tapi dia relek je.

Anyway$.. what else.. Thgs between me n certain ppl havent been so... good. Sigh.. I dunno what to do. With the 1st person, i just really hv no clue. With the 2nd person, I cant stand the way she's behaving and doing things but i just cant tegur her. I feel like i might step on her toes and i dont want that to happen.. I hope she can figure it out for herself. Cos i cant stand the way ppl talk about her, anymore. Like as if she's sum kinda cheap whore yg boleh dijumpa kat tepi jalan. Sum ppl say that u can talk to ppl thru the mind. Like telepathy or sumthg like that. I hope she can just read my mind so that i dont hv to tell her.

Im really feelin the nerves of exam now. hahah.. i noe what u guys r thinkin. "cakap nervous tapi masih boleh blog... bodoh bangang punya orang.." Only way to release stress!! What to do? And i have to do well in Chem this time.. I promised myself i wont let Cikgu Mazura down.. I hope our trip back to KL this time durin hols will ease the stress n tension a bit.. We'll be there for about 16 days. And we're going to Langkawi for 4 days with mum's family. That ought to be fun. Lookin forward to seein all my cuzins.. Also hope to catch up with my school frens and also my other frens & relatives (eg. Vaneesha, Jennifer, etc...) Shaleen too since she might be in KL. We go jalan2 cari makan kay, babe? ;P I'll miss u too much n might get depressed if i dont get to see you thruout the hols. Dah la aku pergi 2 hari sebelum mula cuti... Thats 2 MORE days. okay okay gettin too emo now. Relek la kan.. hahah.

Okay la thats all for now. I gtg odi. Going to bathe and get ready. For what? It's mother's day la, remember? Bukan aku yg di-celebrate-kan yer, jgn harap la in the near future... haha gonna take mummy out for dinner and give her her present. Hope she likes it. Happy Mother's Day to all mothers out there. God bless you all. Where, what, who, and how wud we be without them? We simply wudnt be at all, without them. Love you, mum. Muah!

P.s.: gonna upload sum pics in the next post. Not now. relek dulu la... Peace =)

-DJ-

Ppl Who I Think Are Hot

2009-02-14T07:06:00.000-08:00

1. Deborah Priya Henry

Why she's hot: Born in Dublin & grew up in Kuala Lumpur. Her mother's white Irish & father, Malaysian Indian. During her school days, she excelled in sports, playing basketball and volleyball and winning a gold medal in the Kuala Lumpur International Schools athletic meet. She also received a "Sportswoman of the Year" trophy. She holds two bachelor's of science degrees in Political Science and Economics from the University of Queensland, Brisbane, Australia. She founded a charity called Open Doors. Her focus is human rights advocacy and sustainable development with a long term goal to eradicate poverty.
Her motto is "Do what you can do, given your capabilities and resources. Everyone can play a part in impacting the bigger picture, now and in the future." And of course, she's hot plainly because she is. Not to mention her high cheek bones.

Birth name : Deborah Priya Henry
Birth date : July 7, 1985
Measurments : 32-24-35 (perfect, lol)
Height : 5'9"

Weight : 52 kg

Eye colour : Brown

Title(s) : Miss Malaysia World 2007

2. Keira Knightley

Why she's hot: Its simple really. Not much to say. Just that, she’s played a queen, a pirate, a bounty hunter and a soccer player—and managed to look hot doing all of 'em.

Birth name : Keira Christina Knightley

Birth date : 26 March 1985
Birth place : Teddington, London, United Kingdom

Height : 5' 7"

Major roles in : Pirates of the Caribbean trilogy, Bend It Like Beckham, King Arthur, etc

3. Roger Federer

Why he's hot: He's a Swiss professional tennis player who is currently ranked World no.2. He was the World no.1 ranked player for a record 237 consecutive weeks. He's won 13 Grand Slam singles titles (3 Australian Open, 5 Wimbledon Open, 5 US Open) currently just one shy of all-time leader Pete Sampras. He has also won 4 Tennis Masters Cup titles and 14 ATP Masters Series titles as well as winning Olympic gold in doubles. As a result of Federer's successes in the sport, he has been named the Laureus World Sportsman of the Year for four consecutive years (2005–08). Well done, Fed.

There's more coming up so stay tuned. This is just quarter of them.. Too tired to do all now. Dont 4get to leave ur comments. I'll do the rest asap. Till then, ciaoz..

~DJ~

>>Latest Updates<<

2009-02-03T23:50:00.000-08:00

Hmm...

Latest in my life?? ngeh.. nothin much.

1) School sucks cos of hwork n with spm comin soon.. (only bearable cos i hv great frens)
2) I miss KL as well as my family n frens over there..
P.s: Happy birthday alia... (belated) her bday was yesterday ~ 3rd Feb
3) I've started studying finally..
4) Me & Wilson r back to normal, i think? lol. we kinda fought but everythg's gud now i guess.
(we've been frens for too long [abt 11 yrs if tak salah saya la] to not go back to normal)
5) I cant miss Ko-K anymore cos all got teachers who know me :(
6) im really bored now as u can tell
7) I miss Vaish. My best fren, my person, my everythg is not here to help me get thru school stress like she used to.. Cos she's a thousand miles away. Anyways, i miss u.

I guess thats all la for now.. Ah yes and mummy & daddy's anniversary was 2 days ago; and Aunty Pushpa & Uncle Raj's (Vaish's parents) was yesterday. And if im not mistaken, Leen's parents' punya anniversary oso coming soon. 28th Feb kan, babe? So anyways happy anniversary to all of them, may they have many more yrs together, bla bla bla.. AMEN. :)

-DJ-

Letting go..

2009-01-29T08:53:00.000-08:00

I know its been so long since i've done this but seriously there was nothg to blog about besides school. Its been crazy. Anyways..

I finally have sumthg to blog about. This is really about me letting go sumthg that i really cant hold on to anymore.. We both know its always been a one-sided thing, babe. I've always loved and cared abt you but i've never felt it was a mutual thing. Despite me letting go, i'll always be here for you if and when you need me but for now, i gotta say im done with trying... Busy is not an excuse, babe. No matter how busy you are, if you really care about sum1, a text doesnt take more than a minute.. you 4got my birthday last yr. you forgot i was sitting for PMR 2 yrs ago. that dont matter much. you made me empty promises. you confused me. and thru it all, i was always a shoulder for you to cry on. maybe one day we'll find a place in each other's life again. As for this moment, i love you and im letting go. This is what i have to say to you.. >>>>>

May the angels protect you

Trouble neglect you

And heaven accept you when its time to go home

May you always have plenty

The glass never empty

Know in your belly

You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing

You find friends worth having

With every year passing

They mean more than gold

May you win and stay humble

Smile more than grumble

And know when you stumble

You're never alone

Never alone

I'll be in every beat of your heart

When you face the unknown

Wherever you fly

This isn't goodbye

My love will follow you stay with you

Babe, you're never alone

I have to be honest

As much as I wanted

I'm not gonna promise that cold winds won't blow

So when hard times have found you

And your fears surround you

Wrap my love around you

You're never alone

Never alone

I'll be in every beat of your heart

When you face the unknown

Wherever you fly

This isn't goodbye

My love will follow you stay with you

Babe, you're never alone

So when hard times have found you

And your fears surround you

Wrap my love around you

You're never alone

This isnt the end. its just a new beginning for both of us.. We gotta go our own way..

~DJ~

I Believe....

2009-01-06T23:40:00.000-08:00

I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, It doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...That we don't have to change friends if We understand that friends change.

I Believe...That no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must
forgive them for that.

I Believe...That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I Believe... That you can do something in an instant That will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...That it's taking me a long time To become the person I want to be.

I Believe...That you should always leave loved ones with Loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe... That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...That we are responsible for what We do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...That my best friend and I, can do anything,
or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe...That sometimes the people you expect to kick you
When you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, But that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had And what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, But, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...That you shouldn't be so eager to find Out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe...Two people can look at the exact same Thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...That your life can be changed in a matter of Hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...That even when you think you have no more to give, when A friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I Believe...That you should send this to all of the people that you believe in, I just did.

'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; They just make the most of everything.

*Er... post abt my trip back to KL, tunggu je la. malas now.. when i rasa nak type, i post la k. Cos got lots to say... k till then, hasta la vista!

-DJ-

Christmas spirit..

2008-12-12T08:22:00.000-08:00

Its... 12.25am now? meaning its Saturday already... meaning that 2mrw is sunday and i'll be goin back to my home.. Happy or sad? I wish i could be just happy but im sad because i know time's gonna fly by. I probably shouldnt think about the negative side. Right? Yeah.. i should start being positive about it so I'll enjoy myself. Okay, Sooooooooooooooo.... Christmas is comin soon... I havent done much shopping.. So far only bought girfts for a few people. The rest, no time already la. So i guess we'll just have to buy them in KL. I guess i HAVE to wear a dress this year cause last year mum was really pissed at me (i didnt buy a dress, instead bought a victorian outfit which is pants and a thg on top.. blouse i guess?).. so yea, i don wanna be dead before i see my 16th christmas.. lol. Oh yea, went to da boat club earlier. There was sum christmas thg there and they had free drinks for an hour.. The club was totally filled with ppl wearing Santa hats and reindeer horns (dunno what da word for it is. forgot.).. There's another christmas party tonight at KRP... i can almost remember last yr's party. seems like just yesterday i was given Shaelina a teddy bear for christmas, there.. lol.. i miss Shaelina. Anyways, back to KL. Cant wait for our annual PD trip either.. It'll be good to be at the beach WITH the people you love.. But in all the excitement, I still keep in mind the people i dearly love very much that arent with me anymore.I wish they were still here. To see me do well in my PMR last yr and to see me turn 16 this yr. However, i know they're watching me from up above and i'll keep all the memories i have with them, with me forever and ever.

In the spirit of christmas, we recall not only the birth of our Lord and Saviour, but also we remember the ones that have gone before us and cherish the wonderful times we have with our families.. I have to say im truly blessed with a wonderful family and I thank God for it. I hope this christmas brings much joy and happiness to every1 as i know it will for me. Well, i guess thats it for now. The christmas season is the best season of the year and i hope every1 wont let it slip by with other distractions but instead spend and cherish it with the people you love most. God bless.

In loving memory of:

Peter Stanley Alphonso

Theresa Gabriel

Anthony Alphonso

Robert Jacob

~May their souls rest in peace~

-DJ-

Bitter, Sweet, & Stupid

2008-12-05T07:31:00.001-08:00

Today i did a lot of thinking. Well, not A LOT... but it was moderately much okay? There was the bitter part, the sweet part, n just 1 stupid part (that was real, not part of the thinkin, it really happened.) So i cant wait to go back to KL for christmas. I cant wait to see my family. My cuzins, especially Kish, Zoe, & Francine. Cant wait to see Aunty Gie, Aunty Pauline, Vaish & Neesh... n of course every1 else la. But im tryin my best not to look forward to it so much. Cos i know it'll fly by just as fast as it comes. Depressing, really, how time passes by so fast, isn't it? But the good news is that its 8 days n 50 minutes more to go.. I know, so much for not lookin forward to it. So lets move on, shall we? I went to an orphanage earlier today. I was so overwhelmed by the kids there. They were all so wonderful eventhough they were all sufferin from down syndrom.. There was a girl who gave me a big hug. I got so emotional and almost cried. This 1 boy named Hazim, kissed my hand before i left. hahah... that was cute. It felt really good to be there. Honestly, i was so overwhelmed that i could hardly speak. That bein said, i had just as much fun. :)

Hmm... Shaleen leaves for New Zealand later today.. Fancy much. hahah. ngeh.. im really gonna miss her.. i think i've become so attached to and dependant on her..? i dunno.. But im just so used to havin her around to talk abt my crap or just to talk abt crap in general. lol... She'll be away for abt 3 weeks. And i'll be in KL for just abt the same period of time. Sucks to know the next time we see each other will be in school.. Once again, depressing thought. *shrugs* Its a depressing day, dont blame me!

Now for the stupid part. I was at the dentist today. I was talkin to Dr Sim while playin with da wire from my braces. This was so not intentional. I was talkin to him abt it and my hands were so itchy to touch the damn wire. Guess what happened? My finger punya skin got stuck there n when i pulled it out, blood came out. It was so embarrassing cos Dr Sim started laughing and handed me a tissue. Haha. So that was my stupid highlight of the day..

Well thats all for now. I dont wanna start typin again cos it'll go into depressing mode again.
In conclusion, i had fun at the orphanage, depression thinkin abt how fast time flys, embarrass-ment at the dentist and lastly, Shaleen, Im gonna miss you so much. ily :)

-DJ-

The "Twilight" zone..

2008-12-02T00:57:00.000-08:00

The Cullens

Spider Monkey...

Edward and Bella

Hmm... OKay so I guess I over under estimated Twilight. It was not bad la. I mean, I liked the stunts and the action and stuff. Although, i must agree with those who say Edward has trouble expressing himself. He looked constipated for the most part. But then again, I also think he played the part well, in all fairness. What else.. Bella was.... i dunno what the right word is for her. Fake, at times. Any1 who doesn't freak if they knew a vampire is just plain mad. She could've freaked at least a little. U know what i mean? Edward's sister was just so pissy and PMS-ed like all the time... Issues.. The rest of them were alright, i supposed. I recognized the Jacob dude from Shark boy & Lava girl; and Edward's so-called mom from Grey's. Took me a while but finally struck me later... Anyways, thats that. All in all, good movie.

Peace out, for now.

-DJ-

My Favourite Quotes...

2008-11-28T22:16:00.000-08:00

We start with the more professional ones :

About life

Act in the valley so that you need not fear those who stand on the hill.
Danish proverb

The secret of life is honesty and fair dealing. If you can fake that, you've got it made.
Groucho Marx (1890-1977)

Minds are like parachutes. They only function when they are open.
Sir James Dewar, Scientist (1877-1925)

Don't go around saying the world owes you a living; the world owes you nothing; it was here first.
Mark Twain [Samuel Langhornne Clemens] (1835-1910)

Now the unprofessional ones :

About other things

Oi, babi! ~ Joanna Niles

ohmygodstop...... ~ Joanna Fong Yii Ting

Sepak you later! ~ Shaleen Tan Li Hui

That means she dirasuh already ah? ~ Kulveer Singh

Tasha.... (not a quote. jz like da way she says my name) ~ Ms Valerie

Amen praise the Lord... ~ Stephanie Kisha Jacob

I love you la! ~ Daniel Gomes

Tits rule! ~ Ros Zahirah

So there you go. Some of my favourite quotes. The most classic ones you'll find. haha... But honestly, my life is only complete with these people in it. And of course, the professionals who inspire me to keep livin my life in my own smart way. Thx for lovin me, to thoso who do. To those who dont, ur loss baby.. As the sayin goes, "To each his own..". See, "im really a lover, not a fighter". I "keep my friends close, and my enemies closer".. Im "not cocky, just confident". And I can just keep goin but its like past 1 am so i better wrap it up with 1 final saying.

"Make love, not war.. "

Much love.

-DJ-

Simply bored..

2008-11-21T00:48:00.000-08:00

Im so bored, so in pain, and so nothing to do. Hmm.. OK this song is awesome. Its the very essence of my being. Lol. A bit over the top dramatic but LIVE WITH IT!!

Ayer conocí un cielo sin sol
y un hombre sin suelo
un santo en prisión y una canción triste sin dueño
ya he ya he ya la he
y conocí tus ojos negros
ya he ya he ya la he
y ahora sí que no puedo vivir sin ellos yo

le pido al cielo sólo un deseo
que en tus ojos yo pueda vivir
he recorrido ya el mundo entero
y una cosa te vengo a decir
viajé de bahrein hasta beirut
fuí desde el norte hasta el polo sur
y no encontré ojos así
como los que tienes tú

rabboussamai fikarrajaii
fi ainaiha aralhayati
ati ilaika min haza lkaaouni
arjouka labbi labbi nidai
viaje de bahrein hasta beirut
fuí desde el norte hasta el polo sur
y no encontré ojos así
como los que tienes tú

ayer vi pasar una mujer
debajo de su camello
un río de sal un barco
abandonado en el desierto
ya he ya he ya la he
y vi pasar tus ojos negros
ya he ya he ya la he
y ahora sí que no
puedo vivir sin ellos yo

le pido al cielo sólo un deseo
que en tus ojos yo pueda vivir
he recorrido ya el mundo entero
y una cosa te vengo a decir
viajé de bahrein hasta beirut
fuí desde el norte hasta el polo sur
y no encontré ojos así
como los que tienes tú

What does it mean? Find out urself la. Lol.. Kidding kidding. K here's what it means, lebih-kurang la. Er... Malas wanna type bah.. Just go see the english version of da song la hor... I know ur wonderin why i didnt just post up the english lyrics. Like i said, I'm me. Not you. =) So...... Go listen to the song if u havent already heard it. Its called Ojos Asi/Eyes Like Yours. There are only 3 ppl whom I think have beautiful eyes. 1 of them is Katrina Kaif. The other 2 are for me to know and you to find out.

Peace out ppl..

-DJ-

Brace face, locked 'n' loaded =P

2008-11-20T18:12:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my first day with braces... No, its not nice. Its not cool. It hurts. A lot. I simply hate it and it makes my jaw feel so tight. It hurts even more when I sneeze. How am I to stop myself from sneezing?!?! I suffer from sinus, for God's sake!!! Anyway, the bright side is, right after i got them on, i met Shaleen and Gwen at Coffee Bean and they made me feel much better by tellin me it didnt look so bad on me but rather looked normal. Were they being nice?? haha.. Nah, I trust them with my life. What colour are my braces? Well its really no suprise. Since christmas is coming, I decided to go all christmas-y. Red & green it is. Finally.......... 23 more days to go home. Home Sweet Home!! So for all you ppl who wanna know what I look like with braces, here's a picture. Dunno if its clear enough. If its not, TOO BAD!!

Dead bored..

2008-11-18T08:07:00.000-08:00

Okay so hols started a week n a half ago. im dying of boredom. SERIOUSLY. its jz hours n hours of agony, ppl!!! And to prove how bored i am, i looked up the very definition of "Boredom"...

>> “an unpleasant, transient, affective state in which the individual feels a pervasive lack of interest.

There was more but this part was all that mattered and made sense to me. lol.. what else.. oh yea im getting my braces on 2mrw... Dreading it but better to get it over and done with... Although i feel bored through my veins, i feel better at night cos i hv sum good company online. Aside from Kish & Nish... i hv my dear fren, Keela who's just as bored as i am most of the time. i think i irritate her with my crap but i love her simply cos she tolerates it and doesnt really care. She's a sweetheart. haha.. Moving on... Leen gets back later 2day. i miss her.. =( but she'll be back!!! Yay. praise da lord! ok ppl. enough for now.

peace out..

Party over herrree..

2008-10-28T22:47:00.000-07:00

Okay so i have never been to such a happening party in my life. It was Shaleen's birthday party on Saturday. Happy birthday, my love!! Hmm.. So yea, it was a blast. Had lots of fun dancing eventhough i didnt "drink". Im proud of myself *big stupid grin*. What else.. Oh yea, I got Keela to dance and she looked SOOO cute. Even Shaleen agreed with that. I kept sayin "last 1, pls. Last 1. This is my fav song" until i think she kinda figured out that i was a load of BS. lol. Gwen was an awesome dance partner. And btw, i have to thank Brian and Gwen for "saving me" if you know what i mean *wink*. Basically everything was goin great till sum1 passed out and gave us all a reason to be stressed. But i think we did a pretty good job in handling that issue. So anyway, i think everything went well and every1 had just as much fun as i did. Before i put up the pictures, Shaleen, here's a little somethg just for you. Hope you like it and oh yea, I LOVE YOU. Thank God you were born. Eventhough you can be a pain in the a** sometimes, you're still the best.

Shaleen,

You don't always show it,

but I know that you care.

Shaleen,

If I'd ever need you,

I know you'd be there.

Shaleen, I'm glad you're my friend.

Your happiness makes me smile.

Your pain makes me hurt.

Shaleen,

I want you to know:

If you need me--I'm there
to make you happy, make you laugh.

Shaleen,

Sometimes you make me mad,

but I can't stay mad.

Shaleen,

Sometimes I want to get away from you.

And sometimes there's nothing I want more than:

to talk to you, to tell you about my day,

to hear about yours, to laugh with you,

to tease you, to share an inside joke, that no one else would get,

to argue with you, but know we're just kidding..

Shaleen,

Do you remember the time when...?

Er.. There are so many times.

Shaleen,

Don't ever lose the wonderful person you are.

Stay happy. Stay healthy. Stay you.

Shaleen,

I'll never stop being your friend.

Don't ever stop being mine.

Shaleen,

Just wanted to tell you:

I kinda love you & I kinda care.

So just er.. Kinda remember ok?

*Happy birthday to you, love.*

Women, Men, and Life Lessons

2008-10-09T00:44:00.000-07:00

Woman are like a massive ocean of emotion. They flow and change like the waves and tides. They really have no direction. Whilst they can give to you the calmest and most peaceful experience, they can also brew the fiercest of storms sinking every man's ship that crosses their path. So if a woman is an ocean, what can a man be to give her what she wants?A man should be a shoreline and rocks.

Hmm.. Ok ppl, lets get real for a while shall we?

Lets start with women. What do women want? *Tall, dark and handsome. Buys you a drink and winks and you from across the room. Sweeps you off your 7-8 sized feet. He's the one. Prince charming. You'll live happily-ever-frickkin-after..* SNAP OUT OF IT!!! Unless your livin on Planet Ape, that just doesnt exist, damn it. Do you really have to fantasize?? No. Live in reality for once and get things right.

So, here's how it is. Women, go out, go shopping, grab a Starbucks' Caramel Frap, do whatever you want. Just remember 1 thing. There's no such thing as perfect. Stop trying that torturous diet, wearing something that you can BARELY breathe in, fumbling your chest for people to notice you. Trust me, honey, they'll notice you alright. As the "poor thg, tryin to get laid." If you're tryin to get a guy to notice you, get up off your a**, shove your playin-hard-to-get face somewhere else, and be straight forward. Oh and if you're goin for the huge handbag, ultra huge shades, 9 inch heels, shorts which are fit to be your underwear, that's just fine. Just.. try and make sure you make it work and dont look like Bobo da clown. As for me, i think its simple. Classify them. Women, i mean, of course. There are only 5 groups of women. Take a look.

The Slut—It’s no secret that men are driven by what they see. The chicks that prance around in barely-there outfits and put themselves out there like walking sex billboards will definitely attract a man, but not for long. These women are the “Promiscuous” girls that Nelly Furtado sang about. They think it’s cute to get sloppy drunk and flash strangers. They feel empowered by having one-night stands and getting attention from as many men as they can. Without the shenanigans of these girls, Joe Francis of Girls Gone Wild fame would have been forced into another line of work.

The Knockout—She’s beautiful, she’s confident, and she knows how to get what she wants. All eyes are on her when she walks into a room. Mucho points for a man’s ego. Other men wish they could have her and women are slightly intimidated by her (although they won’t admit it).

The Challenge—Men love the thrill of the hunt. They want the woman that is attractive, smart, charming … and out of their reach. The woman who doesn’t fall all over them when other women do. The woman this is nonchalant or even slightly aloof regarding the fact that this man wants her so bad. She may even be his friend, but he just can’t quite get there.

The Submissive—These are women who will make a man feel like a man. She likes for him to take the bull by the horns in the relationship and she will cater to him no matter what. He won’t have to clean/take care of the kids/cook or do much of anything because she’s like his own personal servant.

The One You Can Take Home to Mama—This woman is just an all-around great catch. She gets along with his friends, understands him like no other, makes him laugh, shares his interests, stimulates his mind, maybe even lets him watch a game in peace every once in a while. She’s a keeper!

Ok so what about guys/men then? Well, honestly, they're not as complicated as women. Maybe sometimes. But most of the time, they're smooth goin, playful, and basically everthing that (to a woman) is rocket science. Dont ask what they want though. Cause thats a bloody simple answer which could either be a turn off and annoy the hell outta you, or which you could just accept as a part of the male species. So maybe prince charming doesnt exist. But these 5 types of men do:

The Bad Boy—He may not have a pot to p*ss in or a window to throw it out, but, if he’s a thug or some other type of bad boy, women will want him. BAD. They’ll wanna fight other women for him. They’ll wanna be his baby mama. They’ll wanna be the one that he settles for. Guess what? This dude’s not gonna settle! He loves the attention and he’ll play a woman as long as she lets him. And if you leave him? So what. There’s another woman waiting around the corner to take your place. Turns out he’s been seeing her on the side anyway!

The Brainiac—Women are turned on by a certain part of a man where the bigger, the better. I’m talking about his brain, of course! Women love a man who can challenge their intellect and enlighten them on a few subjects, whether it be politics, mechanical engineering, or whatever subject matter their lacking knowledge in. It’s sexy when a man can hold a stimulating conversation and actually look you in the eye. It doesn’t hurt when he can answer a few questions while playing Trivial Pursuit, either.

The Charmer—Charisma is extremely important. Nobody wants to end up with someone who will bore them out of their skull. It’s important to women that their man is appreciated by their friends and loved ones. He should have the wit and charm to hold folks in awe for hours on end. They want to hear them say “What a great guy! I like him. When is he coming around again?”

The Knight in Shining Armor—Let’s face it, women don’t like wimps. They want a man to protect them from danger, defend their honor, and carry heavy groceries (not necessarily in that order). They want a strong man in their corner. Not that they'll test him, but they basically want him to be able to kick someone’s butt if it comes down to that.

The Perfect Man— i told you. nothing and noone is perfect. doesnt exist.

Well, thats that. This is not about "battle of the sexes". Just a simple article from reality experiences.
In the words of India Arie

"Dont be offended,
this is all my opinion, ain't nothin that im sayin law.
This is a true confession of a life learned lesson
i was sent here to share with ya'll"

Men, women, be happy with your lives. If you think you have problems, think again. There are ppl in the world who dont know what snow looks like, or what Chris Brown & Rihanna sound like. Count and thank your stars.
Hope you enjoyed. Cheerz.

1st photos uploaded..

2008-10-08T05:49:00.000-07:00

Frens... What more can i say?

Newbie...

2008-10-08T00:29:00.000-07:00

OK, so today is da birth of a new blog..
yup.. i jz created dis blog a few seconds ago.
as embarrassing as it is, i needed help to do so.
so i would like to thank my dear friend,JOJO
for helping me. love u =P

Moving on.. School today was boring.. I could've died
during assembly as it was a FURNACE!! Den, der was a b***hy
teacher who sat in for Ms Mazura during chemis. i wanted
to bang her head against da wall.. Add maths... huh.. no comment.
Other subjects, just ur normal average everyday kinda thing.
To conclude my day at school, it was rather.. unproductive. Hmm.
Oh ya. Shaleen was all depressed again. I feel kinda worried for her
but she didnt wanna talk about it. So dat's dat. Anyways...

With this, i... "merasmikan" (cant find da word in english, lol) dis blog.